So I'm really annoyed by my current housing situation. One of my roommates thoughtless requested his friends to move into our apartment, despite their not being any space. So since my lease runs out by move-in next year, they just assigned them to my room. Effectively kicking me out. Now, I understand there are no legal requirements to keep a room for someone. But my lease doesnt run out until august and Ive been requesting renewals for the last few weeks!  That's poor customer service that ends with me getting kicked out of my home. The only reason I'm not moving out of that complex out of spite is because its too expensive to look for a new apartment from MD. and moving is a bitch.  More problematic is the fact that now I have to basically transfer/switch rooms, which is essentially a full move, and I have to do so on their timetable. Going back to Tennessee a week early is not something I want hanging over my head. I'm trying to think of staying in maryland for the summer as a bonus that I never should have expected anyways, but thats a small conselation. It'll probably be good for my education, since there's a lot of things I need to finish before school starts. Like everything. 

The same day all that shit went down, I found out Amanda's thinking of leaving the program. Which she's been on and off about. But every time she talked about it before, it sounded sad and stressed. When she talked about leaving this time, it sounded happy. I honestly support her whatever she chooses, but although I wouldn't admit it to her, I'd miss her a lot. SAY NOTHING RACHEL.

In other news, school is going slowly, if at all. Im still quite behind on reading, have done nothing for my thesis, and I think its a matter of time before my consulting job fires me. I feel brannan keeps getting behind because of me. I just haven't had time and learning Flash is killing my brain cells. Work is also on a bit of a deadline. Waiting on the job analysis surveys to get filled out means wasted time and more stress. Comparatively, things are going well. All of these situations can be traced back to taking this job and I still don't regret it. I know what I got myself into, I'll deal. Even if the lack of taking care of myself resulted in getting myself sick. 

Small community fame is a strange thing. I'm looking through the Space Marines rulebook at some of the ridiculously painted figures, golden demon winners, and come across the name of one of the trainers who sits across from me. Or a random Brit walking in, looking like an extra in a Hellblazer comic, and people whispering and saying, "That's the guy who invented Sigmar!". It's a strange little world. And I'm sure many more exist in different fandoms and communities. It's the same cult of the celebrity that I sometimes despite, but fuck! I got to shake dan abnett's hand! 

So, right, dont remember when I last updated.  Maybe because Ive been REALLY DAMNED BUSY.  Ugh, family visiting (dont get me started) and work all weekend and week and class and professors not giving adequate instructions with more work and . . . ARRGGGGHHHH. 

Anyways, quick update:
At work, I worked Gamesday, which was pretty dull on the corporate end.  Lots of shit jobs, but I did get an awesome lunch with Rob and to see the painting competition, so thats really all I needed.  and free defect miniatures.  Post that we had an open bar with all the nerdy guys from British GamesWorkshop HQ.  So I met the lead games developer Jervis.  Once I had a few drinks in me, I was tempted to ask him to write me a rulebook.  Also 4 beers + 3 whiskeys for free?  I approve.  Father's day, I saw the Hulk, which was shockingly amazing. 

This week has been a crapload of work, then going home and reading.  Boo.  Im tired of class. I just see so much on my plate and it makes me not want to do anything and then get more behind.  Not having the weekend to catch up was a bummer. The workload is getting to the point where it's demotivating to my entire world view. I see a pile of research to read and its not just, "shit, this will ruin my weekend." its "shit, this will ruin my career and I have no idea what I want to do with my life."

I've been toying with the idea of really pushing for gaming companies (possibly even GW) for a career, at least for a bit. But the more I learn about the field, the less likely that seems for a long term choice. GW is probably one of the biggest and they run so lean, I see nowhere to really go. Other companies are just as small and I'd be just as unnecessary. There isn't much of a need for more quantity or quality HR Professionals here, to the point where I/O is a level of specialization that is unheard of and unnecessary. Working somewhere I enjoy is a plus, but I don't want to be paying grad school bills with a job I'm overskilled for. Maybe independent consulting . . . 

But of course, I really don't know what I want to do with a PhD, so this is still in the testing phase of the real career search, I suppose.  I mean, hey, just a summer job?  I need to stop getting so wrapped up in future plans that are actually, in fact, tethered to my very current situation. Dont you love when you're so completely oblivious to the biases and assumptions of your own thoughts?